I'm an imbecile. Why can't i talk. I've lost. This time, i've lost really badly. I've been out-argued. No chance to counter at all. Her mother really did call. And i really dunno wat to say. Her words lashed down on me with cruel reality. And worst of all, the whole conversation was in chinese. Those who know me well will know why. I can't argue for nuts in chinese. I restrained myself from using english in fear that she'll use that as a point against me. I did my best to speak fluent chinese. But i was too unprepared. too unprepared.

She hit me where i was the weakest. She accused me of being too flirtatious. Saying that there are many girls out there who like me. I agreed and countered saying that it's diff frm me liking them. and she shot back saying that i treat them too well. its as if i'm encouraging them. But what can i say. Its true. I treat my friends well. I treat gals better. But i do have reasons behind that. But by saying out the reasons, she'll have a new point to attack me with.

Of course, the standard issues were there. Age, studies, etc etc. But the crux was that she disapproved of me because i had too many gals in my life. And that i can't show for certain that my dear is the only one i'll love for the rest of my life.

I've lost. Big time. Owned. And there's almost nothing i can do abt it. I've lost. I might have just lost her for all i noe. Dunno wat is going on. Confused. I'm rendered speechless.

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